If your 8 year old self met you would they be proud?

When I was 8 I lived in a plantation house in Honomu. What does that mean? Well, it was old. Not the kind of old that you find on the mainland....it was Hawaii old.

It was post and pier....except all the posts were sitting on river rocks. Some of the posts weren't even touching their rocks and were just dangling uselessly because the ground had settled so much over the years.

Old in Hawaii also might mean termites. Our house was full of them. Sometimes if you pushed on the wall your finger might go through it and termite poop would fall out. My Mom would go and get duct tape and the right color paint from the utility closet. We'd tape the hole and then paint over it.

My room was pink. It wasn't really pale pink either. I got to pick my own colors. Think peony pink with hot pink trim. Oh yah. My door was like the kind of door you'd find in a barn. It was divided into two sections so I could close just the bottom. I also had a bed with a ruffle canopy.

The kitchen was probably half the house. It was really, really big. So big that we actually had a sitting area between the sink and the fridge. No lie. Two chairs and a big turquoise wool area rug. The kitchen didn't have any windows. The whole thing was screened in with a covered lanai that ran all the way around the back. It basically looked out onto a massive gulch and all you could see was jungle.

Strangely, even though the house was very private our neighbors were really close. If we yelled from our kitchen windows our neighbors could hear us. If one of the neighbor kids got head lice (called uku's in Hawaiian) their Mom would scream out the window, 'UKU ALERT! UKU ALERT!' and then our Mom's would check our heads for lice.

Of all the homes I've lived in, this one is my favorite.

I wonder sometimes how I ended up where I ended up. Was there one thing - one decision - one teacher - one experience - that made me want to be a sailor?

If there was one thing then I think it would have to be this house. We call it 'the Honomu House'.

It was in this house that I learned to play outside. Really play. I built forts. I butt skidded (yes that's what you call it) down the sides of gulches. I caught crayfish and crawled through culverts. I got pin worms from eating guavas off the ground (or maybe from playing under the guava tree and then sucking my thumb). I stepped on rusty nails under the house. I didn't brush my hair all summer long (and then my mom would brush my dreadlocks the night before the first day of school).

It was in this house that I learned how to laugh. Like when I was zooming around on my roller skates on the back deck, and my Mom commented on the St Paulie girls cleavage - I laughed so hard I peed my pants and then had to hose out my roller skates. Or when our cat Roscoe had to get taken to the vet so we put him in a card board box....which he escaped out of as soon as we were in the car....he made the most god awful noises (which probably weren't funny) but, we almost had to pull over because my Mom and I were cracking up so hard.

It was in this house where I learned to read and fell in love with books. The True Confessions Of Charlotte Doyle. I think this book was where I first realized there were adventures to be had at sea. I read copious amounts of books snuggled up in our comfy white leather chair. COPIOUS.

I think this house is where my eight year old self learned the magic of an adventure, of laughter, and of fresh air.

I don't however, think she'd ever imagine combining all three of those things to become a sailor.

Would she be sad that pink got made fun of? Would she miss home? Would she wish that she had more friends or that it wasn't so competitive? I don't know.

What I DO know about my eight year old self is that she'd love star gazing at sea. She'd love a jaunt into town while in a new port. She'd love shenanigans at sea with her shipmates. She'd love the challenge. She'd love a cup of coffee on the bridge at sunrise and, I know for a fact my eight year old self would be incredibly proud that her bossiness was an asset.

(The inspiration for this post can be found here.)

(also, I wrote this in a weird writing frenzy...I typed it out as fast as I could on my iPad...I didn't proof read it because I thought I might not post it if I did...I hope it doesn't scream 'conscious stream of thought'!)

Hang On Little Tomato

I've mentioned before that sometimes I live my life as if it has a soundtrack. My moods have songs. Songs that I never, ever, ever get tired of hearing. EVER. My Semi-Sad / Slightly unsure what to do next / Need to know there is a light at the end of the tunnel Song is called Hang On Little Tomato by Pink Martini (who for sure make my top ten favorite people to listen to).

I had a particularly rough day at sea awhile back. I must have played this song about five times in a row while I was on watch. My AB who had been staring out the window finally looked at me and said, "uh Mate.....is everything okay?". I had to chuckle and say "yah, I just needed a dose of some little tomato!". He was a big burly guy from the south and I was pretty sure he thought I was CRAZY. A few days later he said, "Mate, can we listen to the little tomato song?". It was then that I knew the magical powers of this song were real.

Yesterday the ladies and I were hanging around the house with Pandora Radio playing in the background....and then all of a sudden Hang On Little Tomato started to play. I let out a squuueee! jumped up and made the ladies start dancing around the living room. (for realsies...the squuueee! happened) The dog got really excited and then he wanted to dance too!

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After the song ended and we all resumed our previous activities I realized a little tomato action was exactly what I needed. My 2012 word CHOOSE has been haunting me. I'm on the cusp of a big choice (which I'll share with y'all in the next few days).

This song actually made it into my mantra for 2012.  Shake it out little tomato!

If you're struggling with tough choices too, here is a little tomato-y advice:

Just hang on, hang on to the vine Stay on, soon you'll be divine If you start to cry, look up to the sky Something's coming up ahead To turn your tears to dew instead

And so I hold on to his advice When change is hard and not so nice You listen to your heart the whole night through Your sunny someday will come one day soon to you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bX2Hg4ldMws&feature=youtube_gdata_player

(The album version has a lot of clarinet in it ...it's lovely but, I figured you'd like to see them live.  If you're hooked and would like to sample the album version as well click HERE.)

 

A Birthday BBQ

So. It turns out when you become an adult BBQs become WAY yummier. SERIOUSLY.

Last night I celebrated a birthday with some of my besties. I don't think I have ever had grilled items that were quite as delicious as the ones I sampled last night.

It turns out that getting older and becoming an adult DO have some advantages! Perfecting the art of grilling might be the best example I can think of to date.

Grilled asparagus, peppers, mushrooms, and marinated beef tips done to perfection. Then there were the salads. Fresh greens, fruit, watermelon basil....I brought the watermelon basil (and I'm thinking that I better share it with you all soon because it's my new go to). Yummy cheese and spreads for bread. AND CAKE. A double layer blueberry muffin cake. (Nate...Fat girls LOVE cake!!!!)

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